no lesson today again =( missed so many lesson le.. now my skill all rust le~~~~
hahas.. coz no lesson then lazy to practice. stomach not feeling well the whole day again. NO MORE GASTRIC FLU for me please. i hate the medicine. not nice at all. taste like mud. walked home after that.. dunno what i doing also didn't pay attention so i accidentally kicked a jack fruit which is on the path. JACK FRUIT leh!! imagine a jack fruit lying on the floor out of no where. the jack fruit like got torn like that, all my toe pain like hell. then i leap all the way home. i was lookin at my toe all the while, then kick onto something again, still hairy hairy de. scare me sia. then i found out is a plant. while walking also can dream. good sia.
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i ADMIT. its my fault. everything from the beginning till now everything my fault. my fault my fault MY FAULT !! everything if is not me then NOTHING will happen. i love to make things bigger and more complicated. i love quarrels. i love to make ppl angry over me. i love to make their mind in a mess and get them frustrated. i love to push blame to others. i love to make myself innocent. i love to act that i know everything. i love to act as if i'm very understanding. i love waiting for answer where as i know there will be no answer. i love people to be cold to me. i just LOVE it. i'm a destroyer. all this are just something which can make someone happy. now he's happy coz everything my fault. none of his fault. you are not to be blame. so blame me. come blame me. BLAME ME . i'm the seed of this mess. alright. now all my fault le and he's happy. so i've done my part. somehow if something really wrong in our mind and we get back to what we are like the past, i assure he can buy popcorn, relax and listen to my "rap". if he does "rap" back, i will say WAIT. i set up my pillow in place, make my blanket, on aircon, lie on my bed, put my phone beside my ear and say "you can start your bedside story" full of crap. oh yah.. i'm a little devil.