don't understand..

i feel very sad yesterday.

Did she know how much i really want that C?

the feeling is like when you like a girl so much and 

you will do what ever you can do just to have her....

longing one day that she can be yours,

have 1 meal a day, cut down on your normal expenses just to give her the best..

and after so many sacrifice,

she still not yours,

and forever not yours.

you know its the truth,

but you can't accept that thats the truth.

and you start to depress,

and kill yourself.

ended.

no matter what,

my mum only holds on to 1 thinking which is,

"Waste of Money"

she claimed that i've graduated 

and there's no point buying it.

Where is the link?

I don't use that for project. Its for my own personal use and does she know how important is everything that happens in my life every single day?

She never knew,

cause its always a waste of money.

nevermind, 

no point talking and just let me emo for the rest of my life.

other than those emo stuff,

i found that i've actually got quite a few cute stuff in my Hallmark pencil case.

TAHDAH!!

(from left:) Ettude Pink Puffy Ball Pen that i got it for FREE! i really like that pen alot cause its like so princess-y, nice to write and most important... its FREE! 

Next is the Hello Kitty Pen i got it from Universal Studio Japan. The head of the hello kitty will "dwine dwine" if you touch it. Its very expensive.. think above SGD$15?? 

Next to it is a My Melody Mechanical Pencil!! I bought it from Sanrio Singapore for like $7.90? I remember its not cheap, but its KAWAII!!

Lastly its a very special pen that cost more than $10 bucks.

i call it LADIES ONLY PEN!

i know i might be hitting 21 this year..

but is it wrong to like cute stuff?

i got a friend's mum that still collecting HELLO KITTY okay!!

hahaha.... shh..

i hope to share more of my collection soon(: